i hate my school's BOSS and her daughter!!

给我一点时间。。。

我需要一点时间，
把它给忘掉，也让伤口痊愈。
相信我，我能做到。

这不是你的错，
也不是任何人的错，
错就错在，我的欲望太高了，
我想和朋友去那边，放松心情，毕竟刚考完试。
但是我觉得我自己真的很自私，
我不应该生你们的气，因为你们并没有错。

我很抱歉，
对于我自己的自私，我自己的小气，
我想你们说声抱歉：
对不起

我不会让我们的友谊就酱子结束，
就相信我最后一次。。

30/10/2009->the bad day 4 us-me,tong n hwa

高兴、兴奋的心情，就这样被你们的一句话，一个举动[有心？无意？]给破坏了！！
一句对不起，能换回我们的心情吗？
事后才来觉得对不起我们，有用吗？

我真的难以置信，
你们会酱做，
但，事实就摆在我眼前，我能不信吗？
我把你们当朋友，你们却当我是傻瓜！！

亏我还能一心一意地费尽心思为你找一份礼物，
只为了不让你失望，
但我想，现在我不必那么做了。
我不知道还应不应该给你做比萨，
但我知道，一句“生日快乐”，是难免的。

我不知道应不应该气你们，
因为我知道，这样做只会伤和气，把关系弄得更疆，
我不想失去多年的友谊，
但是我无法当作没发生过这回事，
它已经割伤了我的心，留下了伤口，已经无法补回了。

我的泪水在淌流，
我不知道为什么。
只希望，它能渐渐地从我的脑海消失，
我的伤口能痊愈。。。

p/s:到目前为止，我还无法知道那是谁的错，
我接受你的道歉，
但你的道歉只属于你一个人，
并不是全部

jamuan hari raya~

1/10/2009:-it's a TIRED, MEMORABLE? day 4 me..

i wake up at about 6.35am,
it's quite late 4 others,but that's just normal 4 me..

yesterday i had choose one of my mum's baju kebaya 4 myself,

she has lot of nice clothes,

i love them so much!!=)

y i choose that baju kebaya?

cause it looks like the little nyonya's actress's baju kebaya,

i love that actress so much!!

so i choose that baju kebaya=p

it's really very nice~

i'm going 2 school at 7.10am,

it's a bit late~:p

after helping my lao gong[sian jo],

i started 2 ask pokok gang 2 help me tie my hair...

we are so busy 2 prepare 4 the jamuan hari raya..

haha

XD

then,

i'm going 2 take photo,play,n hang around with my frenz~

it's quite tired,n my legs started feel pain..

i'm suffering,

but i have lots of fun..

after some of my friends were going home,

i started feel very tired n moody..

y i'm moody?

mayb cause of THAT i think...[i think my frenz will noe it]

i care about it,

i never give up~!

cause i noe that i can't do so...

i didn't take any photo with her that day,

will i feel regret?

i don't know..

selamat hari raya aidilfitri~

selamat hari raya aidilfitri

4 my malay frenz~

n

hapi holide

4 my dearest frenz~

muaks~

ily~n imy~

do rmb me oweys~

hope u'll get well soon...

i was shocked when tze yi told me that u met an accident,
i can't believe that that's a true.
i can't do my work well,
i was so worried about ur injury,
where are u now,
how are u now,
are u suffering now,...
i can't stop my mind to stop thnking of these..
i done my kh modul wrongly,
i even can't concentrate on my game[bingo]..
after recess,
i called u n i was surprised that u answered my call....

hope that u will get well soon,
n good luck for ur coming exam,
DO YOUR BEST!!
chaiyokk,
god blessed u~

happy bufday 2 my dearest~

18th September 2009~

my dearest h.sha bufday~

happy sweet 14th~

hv a great day n happy oweys

X)

gud luck 4 u~

muaks

XOXO

folio!!<---被它搞死料！！

folio!!folio!!
才刚完成f2 kh folio，
就要开始做geo的料！！
都不知道要怎样做咯。。
要晕料！！！
跟他借时，[那时有考试，回msg比平时还要快！！好料！！佩服他！！]他竟然讲不知道放去哪里料！！又晕！！！
所以到料现在，
我只画到kedah&kota star的地图。。。要死料！！

geo还没有做好，
就传来坏消息。。。。。。。。。。
我的f1 kh folio不见料！！
好料了啦，
要做过到完！！
晕！！晕！！晕！！

还有sivik folio，
不过幸好那是组别的，
而且是副科，所以没有酱担心。。

哟，整天被人家欺负。。可怜死。。

最近整天被人家欺负咯。。
小猪，哭包，小花，chio che。。。
够力咯他们！！

小猪，也就是俊豪咯，
整天讲我，
一下讲我是老阿妈，一下讲我失soya妈咪！！
气死我料咯！！
他自己才是老阿公一个涅！！
整天忘记这个忘记那个的！！！
气死人料！！

哭包[俊豪讲的]也是的啦，
半斤八两罢料！！
欺负料人就讲人家欺负她。。
上次还画我的手咧！！
找一次机会我一定报仇的！！
还有，
有料男朋友就抛弃我料。。
呜呜。。够力。。
被人家抛弃料。。没人要料。。可怜。。

小花和chio che也是的咯，
不要给我回家。。
可怜。。
救命丫！！
绑架案咧！！谁来救救我咧？[最好是sai2咯，哈哈]
啊！！还有还有，就是抢劫案，威胁案，校园暴力事件！！
他们两个统统都有干！！
可怜罢料。。呜呜。。
幸亏过后骗他们讲已经很迟料，
他们才肯放人咯。。

做么我酱可怜的咧？
整天被欺负。。
我有没有欺负人。。
呜呜。。

Is this called giving up?

I love you,

but it's already PAST.

Is this real?

This is not a fake?

Sometimes i was confusing,

confuse that what am i thinking about,

what am i doing,

what am i talking...

I really don't know what i am thinking,

what i wanted to do..

I can't control myself,

and also force myself to forget you immediately,

but i am trying.

I know that i can do it!!

tired life!! what the hell!!

After the holiday,
I have to prepare to start my school life again.
So hate school life,
coz need to do so much homework!

At the first night after school open,
i slept at 1.30am!
I cant sleep,
without any reasons.
I was thinking so many silly things.
It's so bored!

At the second day,
I do my homework till 2/3am!!
What homework so important?
It's was Pn. Rahmah homework!
She suddenly want us to pass it up on Tuesday.
I have to force myself not to sleep and finish all my homework!

What i have done for this holiday?

I have been playing for the first week of the holiday!

Fs[ing],MSN[ing],MS[ing]...

Do nonsence for the whole week!!

On sunday,

i went Pei Fong's house to do some project.

At there,

i do nothing,

just playing,

chatting,

eating,

and drinking.

Besides these,

i do nothing.

I really don't know what i have to do.

I just know that i need to relax myself,

i need to play!

On Wednesday,

i go shopping and skating with my friends at Pacific.

Wow,

i have a lot of fun there,

although i had spent many money.

The skating ticket cost RM17.

Althogh it was quite expensive,

but it was really fun=)

On Friday,

i went to Kuala Lumpur to join a treasure hunt on Saturday.

I love treasure hunt,

same as my dad,my mum and my uncle and aunt=)

It is an interesting activity!

In the evening,

we went to IKEA to have a look there.

I had bought a pillow there.

It's so soft,

make me feel so comfortable=)

On Saturday,

i had to wake up at 5.30am.

after bathing,

my uncle bring us to a place.

That place is for all the participant gathered there.

The treasure start at around 7.30.

I have learned so many interesting knowledge from my uncle.

We reached at Butterworth at 4.50.

At night,

all the participant gathered at a hall to have our dinner.

After that,

the result was given.

We had get the champion of the chinese category and the whole treasure hunt competition!

Feel so happy!!

I love my friends always,and forever!!

FRIENDS,

i love you all!!

For all the time,

and never end!!

The time stay with you all is the happiest time for me,

even just sit at your side.

Hope our FRIENDSHIP will FOREVER,

and never end!!

heart BROKEN!!

My heart had really fully broken ald..

This time is not because of HER,
but is because my friend.
You all really hurt me!!
DEEPLY hurting my heart!
My heart is bleeding now!
Why you all must do such thing[s] to hurt me?!
Why?WHy?WHY?

I give my heart to ALL OF YOU,
but everyone is hurting it!!

I really don't want our friendship ending like that!
It's so terrible,horrible and DREADFUL!!!!!!

Please,
don't treat me like that!
I can't bear such feelings anymore!!
I CAN'T GET HURT ANYMORE!!

I'm not demand you all to tell me everything,
but i really hope that you all don't evade me.
At least treat me as yours friend........

Flower friendship=)

Our friendship will be forever!!

haha=D

Here are the members of 'FLOWER FRIENDSHIP':-

Choo Hoi Chin [ crystal ]

Michelle Teoh Zi Yan [ shell ]

Peh Pei Fong [ fong ]

Soh Yuen Ming [ soya ]

OMG!! When i know it,i really can't stop laughing!!

Hahaha!!!
I really felt so funny when i know u have such a .... boy friend.

Oh man,
please forgive me,
i am not purposely wanted to laugh at you.
But i can't control myself!

When i saw those sweet words and honeyed phrases,
i almost wanted to vomit already!!
YUCK!!
They make me feel nauseated!!

But it's really so funny for me!!
Hahahahahahaha=D

Anyway,
God bless you and your boy friend will live in perpetual happiness!!

My exam life had already GONE!!

My exam life had just end up today[27/5/2009]!!
I had been looked forward for today for a long time.

Now,
i no need to study till 1 o'clock,
no need to wake up at 5.30,
no need to study like a madwoman,
no need to worry about the exam[but just the result]!!

Now,
i can play my computer,
open my friendster,
my my space,
my msn messenger,
renew my blog,
or even play online games freely,
without any apprehensions!

I had been get back my normal life,
since today!

my xm=/

xm subject:

moral[ok jaa]

bi ppr 2[ok laa..]

bi ppr 1[sum ques dificult]

bm ppr 2[ringkasan hard pun lo..]

bm ppr 1[sum ques dificult]

sej[soo dificult!it makes me wnna die dy!]

sc ppr 2[bad rsult..]

sc ppr 1[ok laa..nt vry concentrate when xm,study kh]

kh[better den laz time!!]

math ppr 2[sum dificult lo..my daddy la!!]

math ppr 1[ok la..nt vry dificult..oso dn concentrate cz study geo]

geo[ok laa..bt gt mny wrong dy..]

bc ppr 2[almost nt enough time 2 fnsh it dy!!]

bc ppr 1[nt vry dificult]

ictl[tht tcer thought all of us r smart!!so complicated d ques wn us 2 gt 85,less then 85 is failed!!is she crazy?!]

exam life,hate it so much!!

Exam,exam,exam,
why we need 2 exam?!
I was completely weighed down by the stress of exam!
Everyday do my revision till midnight,
my 'panda eyes' had appear since the 1st day exam!
So hate it!

At the 1st day of the exam,
i had fall sick!
Flu+cough.
And the 2nd day it turn serious!
Flu+cough+fever!
Luckily i had been fully recovered after taking some medicine.

The sejarah make me almost become a madwoman!
The questions are so complicated!
They make me get a headache during the examination!
What the hell la!
My sejarah sure will get a bad result in this exam la!

And the ictl too!
Those questions are so unfamiliar and complicated for me!
I almost don't understand all the questions,
how i can get 85 in the exam larx!
What a stupid teacher!

SICK!!

19/05/2009
That day morning when i go to school,
i am having a cold.
But it was minor.
At night,
when i was tuition-ing,
it started to get serious.
But i am not so care about it,
because i need to remember 14 moral definisi,
and also bi's novel,'The Phantom of The Opera' every character's characteristic!
What the hell la!!
That day study till about 1.15a.m. just sleep,
so tired la!!

20/05/2009
Started to cough in the morning,
but it is not getting serious.
But my flu is getting serious.
I almost used all of my tissue paper when the moral exam is proceed.
It made me so uncomfortable!
Hate it!!
After recess,
my flu is better than just now already.
But still feel very uncomfortable...

new hair cut~

Just now go cut my hair jor,..

It's so short!!

Haha~

I go cut my hair coz i want to have a new life,

i want to get rid of my tiredly lifestyle,

that's a terrible,horrible lifestyle!!

A new hair cut=A new lifestyle

Welcome,MY NEW LIFESTYLE!!=D

What i had done before?

I cried before,
because you didn't keep one's word.

You say that you wanted some privacy,

so you don't want to give them your hp number.

But after few days,

you break your promise!

You gave them your hp number!

And one of them told me that you give your hp number yourself,..

When i know that,

i really feel so sad and dissapointed!

I cry at room alone,

and the feeling is so terrible!!

After few minutes,

i use my other hp number to send a message to you:你让我伤心

And then i started to calm down,

started to ask my friend the truth,

i just then know that is they ask for your hp number,

but not you give it yourself.

The crazy boys!! Hate them!!

Those are the monkeys from the jungle,

first time live at the town!

They are so noisy,
just keep talking, chatting, making trouble when tuition!
I cant tolerate their bad manners!
I am so hope that teacher will chase them from the tution class,
and no need to attend the class anymore!

They always play tricks on the girls when tuition,include me!!
Last friday,
a beautiful girl's[sure not me,coz i am not a beautiful girl] slipper had missing after tuition.
I'm definite that one of the monkeys had taken her slipper.
She still have a smiling face when she's at teacher's house.
But when she get into her mother's car,
she started to cry.
When her mother know the truth,
she scolded the boys.
At the same time,
i feel so happy when the boys get scolded!

What means 'normal' life?

What is a 'normal' life means?
Simple life?
Uncomplicated life?
Happy life?
Peaceful life?
Or a lovely life?

It makes me feel so complicated+confuse.
I don't know which type is my life,
i am confusing about what is the 'normal' life means.

I want and hope to have a life that without tears,bad mood,sad,quarrel but full with happy,laugh,peaceful.
Is that a 'normal' life means?

SAS st.john~

So happy that we get the third prize in the kawad competition which held on 12/5/2009 at SK Kubang Rotan.
Congratulation to all St.John squad members~
Let's work harder to get the first in the future~
I'm sure that we can did it!!
We will be better than Sultanah Bahiyah School!!
We will be the best!!
Chai yok all the St.john members!!
We are the best=]

失望的心情.........(14/4/2009)

下课后，我和朋友从f5 block走回班

进入f5 block前，我好像看见了你，但并不肯定那是否就是你

还没看见你之前，我告诉自己我不会后悔选择走这条路，好像有预感会遇见你似的

但最后，我还是后悔了。。。。。。。。。

转个弯后，我看见了你，在我班和2n班之间站着。

脑海中突然有股想要跑去找你的冲动，但却被我强硬克制住。

挣扎了好久，我决定跑去找你。我跑得很快，比赛跑时还要快！

跑到2m前的时候，有一群人阻挡了我的去路。。

因为急着想见到你，我就选择走另一条路，但这次的选择，却让我和你插肩而过........................